DEC 19 2012

I am so damn confused, I am having mixed feelings about O. I... like him? I told him. He's sending me mixed signals now. I feel awful. At the same time I really miss M. Brain, wtf? I don't undestand this. Teenage is so full of feeling fucked, confused and hurt. And with T.. nothing has changed. Maybe I should just let it burn... by meaning our memories.  I feel bad. And... I hurt O's feelings. I lied. And why, I don't know. And then there's the gorgeous, incredible M. Am I clingy about him? I don't want to be clingy. I don't. I just don't want to let him slip away.. he's special. He has something so amazing in him. I need to go cry now..