DEC 19 2012
I am so damn confused, I am having mixed feelings about O. I... like him? I told him. He's sending me mixed signals now. I feel awful. At the same time I really miss M. Brain, wtf? I don't undestand this. Teenage is so full of feeling fucked, confused and hurt. And with T.. nothing has changed. Maybe I should just let it burn... by meaning our memories. I feel bad. And... I hurt O's feelings. I lied. And why, I don't know. And then there's the gorgeous, incredible M. Am I clingy about him? I don't want to be clingy. I don't. I just don't want to let him slip away.. he's special. He has something so amazing in him. I need to go cry now..
keskiviikko, 19. joulukuu 2012
would he say he's in l-o-v-e
tiistai, 18. joulukuu 2012
just one look at you
DEC 18 2012
It felt like O was mad at me today. He denied it though. And he didn't talk to me later on today, like he usually always does. I also miss T. She did what she did, but still... I miss her. I can't even deny it anymore. I try and try. In a way I still hate her and feel hurt by what she did, but then there's the other side of me that misses her so much. It's sad, because it will probably never work. I had great times with her. I miss those times, all those future plans. But.. times change, right? I'm even more close with E, J and N than I am with her now. Sometimes I feel lonely and sad. And then there is M. I miss him so much. But he lives so far away.. And I like O too. But I can say, that I love M. I need to work things out with O now.
♥
It felt like O was mad at me today. He denied it though. And he didn't talk to me later on today, like he usually always does. I also miss T. She did what she did, but still... I miss her. I can't even deny it anymore. I try and try. In a way I still hate her and feel hurt by what she did, but then there's the other side of me that misses her so much. It's sad, because it will probably never work. I had great times with her. I miss those times, all those future plans. But.. times change, right? I'm even more close with E, J and N than I am with her now. Sometimes I feel lonely and sad. And then there is M. I miss him so much. But he lives so far away.. And I like O too. But I can say, that I love M. I need to work things out with O now.
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